For Adam, who gave my words melody.

Today I swallowed the ocean.

Choked it down until I could breathe again. Tears spilled down onto my clothes for all of those times I told myself I would not give in. But I do. I give in and I can't help it, but I'm not ruled by the same things as you are. This heart forces me to do things I don't want to. It stands at the helm, twisting and turning the wheel, sending me tumbling about below deck.

It's a difficult life this way, but there's nothing I can do about it.

I swallowed the ocean today and it had a bittersweet taste.