Today

Today is a day.

Just another day.

A day so ordinary it makes my insides ache for change.

Waking up today I realized I'm about half way down a road I didn't choose to walk down. And my thoughts, they've betrayed me. And writing isn't helping me untangle this big, messy ball of yarn that is my life.

I find myself a bit lost, yet again. Tumbling about in plasmatic limbo, white knuckled, eyes closed tight, not knowing where I'll land.

It sucks.

And all I know is that there is not enough White-Out in the world to cover up the mistakes I make daily. Hourly.

But today is a day.

Just like tomorrow will be.

And even though walking this path wasn't a choice, today I can choose to dig in my heels, swivel myself around, and propel myself in the other direction. I've chucked the map and am traveling on instinct.

And I can't believe I couldn't figure this out earlier.

But, today doesn't care. Today has not betrayed me.

*edit* Today is the day.

Intermission

I know you're due for Part Three. I'm working on it. In the meantime, enjoy this piece I wrote a while back. Still very relevant!

Choose a life. Choose a job. Choose the fancy car or the modest car. Choose between cream and sugar. Choose to love a man, woman, pet, house, painting, ex-boyfriend, daughter, yourself. Choose paper or plastic. Choose the higher deductible and lower premium. Choose to get to know someone, something, someplace like the back of your hand. Choose well-done or rare. Choose to be happy, sad, excited, lonely, insecure, confident and outspoken. Choose to be all of them at once. Choose something. Choose your friends. Choose a big fucking television. Choose crazy over boring. Choose heels over flats. Choose to believe less in god and more in yourself. Choose a candidate. Choose 350 count instead of 200 count. Choose pride, greed, envy, wrath, lust, gluttony, and sloth. Choose to forgive him. Choose a restaurant, already! Choose lots and lots of books. Choose to create something remarkable. Choose forever or fleeting. Choose to make it easier on someone else, even if it makes it harder on you. Choose to deserve better. Choose to want, to sing, to dream. Choose Grey Goose or Absolut. Choose differently this time. Choose red and gold and green and bright blue. Choose to vote. Choose whether or not he makes you mad today. Choose big white lies. Choose compassion everytime. Choose to say yes. Choose Chekhov over reality TV. Choose to open a window when a door closes. Choose to be brave. Choose to turn it up, not off. Choose a party affiliation. Choose to cry, pound, scream, kick, punch, yell. Choose to feel something. Choose to be unsure. Choose the Cubs or the Sox, not both. Choose your favorite memory and keep it close. Choose love, always. Choose your own destiny. Choose mismatching socks today. Choose something heartfelt over expensive. Choose me. Choose you.

Just choose.